It may seem unbelievable or even imagined, but I feel that Satan — or perhaps two angels, demons, or people under spiritual influence — is trying to control me or force me to change or perish. I am experiencing deep spiritual and physical pain. The voices I hear bring trauma and distress. They seem to use people I love, cherish, struggle with, or even feel drawn to, and they turn them against me.

I pray the Rosary, I pray to God, and I try to live my life according to His will. If you have suffered a nightmare because of me, or have been hurt simply because you know me, I am deeply sorry.

I made mistakes when I loved Zoey and did not take your advice. I may be failing here as well. Even while fully medicated, I felt tortured, and I am still asking for help.

I need your prayers, forgiveness, love, and respect. And I will pray for you, love you, and ask God to bless you too. As Ephesians 6:12 reminds us, “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” Please keep me in your prayers as I fight this spiritual battle.

— Michael

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